My current treatment that is successfully healing me

It’s been a few days since I’ve been back from my journey to meet my doctor. I want to attempt to describe the care I’m getting. I’m afraid it feels like a bit of a challenge to explain the essence of the care.

I’ve been working with my doctor for about 3 months. In that time I went from sleeping 2 -3 hours a night, at best. (sometimes I didn’t sleep at all) I was bedridden most of the time and even found sitting up in a comfortable chair too exhausting. Holding the phone to my ear exhausted my arm too much. Leaving the house was almost impossible. I was extremely nauseas most mornings and I had headaches about 50% of the time. I had stopped tapering entirely for the previous 3 months.  I really didn’t know if I was going to be able to continue at all.

When I called my doctor the first time she did her best to say no to me. She did not want to take on someone so seriously ill. She generally works with people before they have descended into serious withdrawal illness. She helps them withdraw from a relatively healthy space or alternately she takes people who need help but who are drug naive and she helps them avoid getting into the med trap at all. She had not taken someone like me on before.

From everything I had read about her and simply from talking to her for about an hour when I called her that first time I knew she understood my condition better than anyone I had spoken to in the last 2 years. She truly understood my condition and because of that she didn’t want to take me on. I think I frightened her slightly. She thought I would test the limits of her knowledge.

What I heard in her hesitation to take me on though was the voice of someone who really got it and who was therefore humble enough to admit she might not have all the answers. I’ve had one doctor after another tell me how they’d have me fixed up in a matter of weeks if I did a few simple tests and took an additional supplement or two. I was sick of being disappointed.

This doctor make no promises. She saw clearly and I didn’t let her off the phone until she agreed to work with me.

I started getting better within 3 weeks following her advice. Within a month I was tapering again. She is as happy as I am to have taken me on. She feels I am teaching her. Sometimes are conversations are almost collegial as I have studied so much. She told me the other day that I know more than most doctors she knows. I already knew that, but it was nice to hear it from a doctor. I laughed when she said that and said, “I know that, but I don’t know as much as you do! That is why I”m so glad I’ve found you.”

So what is she doing that is helping so much? First she pays very close attention to everything I say. She looks for patterns and finds them, even when I don’t, even though I write things down. She is alert and attentive. She actively studies expressly to learn about my case. In one instance after one of our appointments talking about my so far extremely difficult Lamictal withdrawal, I got a phone call about an hour after the appointment was over. She had been studying the PDR (”physicians desk reference” which is a catalog of all pharmaceuticals.) While all doctors have a PDR on their desk, very few will read the entire fine print on any given drug. Well that is what she had done after getting off the phone with me!

She had made a potentially important discovery: She found that Lamictal inhibits Sodium ion channels which in turn stops the cell membrane from firing. She surmised, with what she knows about chemistry, that to offset this action during my withdrawal I would need to take Potassium Chloride. This she hypothesized would calm my nerves down and ease the Lamictal withdrawal.

This was a theory and an experiment. I started taking half a teaspoon of Potassium Chloride the following day. It’s not available as a supplement—I bought Morton’s Salt Substitute!! $1.83. The most amazing thing happened once I added that to my regime. Within 24 hours I was out and about again, driving, running errands, seeing friends and walking. It was mind boggling and wondrous.

(Word of caution: Potassium Chloride is potentially dangerous if too much is taken. A friend of mine told me it was used in China for executions. It can lower blood pressure dangerously and therefore you should not treat yourself without a doctors guidance with this method.)

I had started getting much better before I added the Potassium Chloride as well though. I am taking a rather stunning assortment of supplements. Some of which I had never heard of before—which given how much I’ve studied surprised me. It was those supplements that got me started toward wellness before she ever added the Potassium. This, unfortunately, is not something you “can do at home.” She is monitoring about 50 supplements that are healing and detoxing me. This is not a regime I will stay on for the rest of my life. I am not replacing a life long addiction to medications with a huge regime of supplements. The supplements are strictly being used to HEAL me. They will be withdrawn once off the drugs and once I’m healthy again. A promise never made to us with medications which we are told we will need forever. I will, without a doubt, stay on some sort of maintenance bare bones regime once healthy. But personally I think everyone should be on some basic supplement regime for optimal health.

Also oddly enough, that amount of supplements still cost less per month then my medications!! And I’m coming close to being off meds. Soon they will outcost my meds, but when I was on my full cocktail, my meds were several times the cost of these supplements. The supplements heal while the meds make me sicker. It’s a no brainer to invest in the supplements.

The last part of how she heals me is the hardest to talk about. I’ve touched on it some in past posts. One of the ways she figures out the optimal amounts of each supplement for me is through energy work. She “muscle tests” to “feel” what is right for me. She is not some nutty new age spiritual believer and neither am I. She is as amazed and respectful of the awesome work she does as I am. She is grounded and humble and lacks the arrogance almost every other orthomolecular doctor I’ve encountered has in spades.

How she fell upon this work is a story that is hers to tell not mine. She is astounded by it as much as I am.

Without getting too much into detail, though, she “feels” what is the right dose of everything for me. You can look up “muscle testing” on google if you want. You can find some videos on youtube on it. One thing I do think, however, is that whoever does muscle testing has to have a lot of integrity and be extremely honest with themselves. I wouldn’t trust just anyone to do muscle testing. It’s too subject to personal bias and subjectivity in my opinion. But I do trust my doctor now. She has proven her excellence.

The last thing she does is energy work on my bodies energy field. We do this over the phone and we did it in person. I also do energy work on my own at home. It’s clear this helps tremendously too. I’m very sensitive to energy and I can feel it flowing through me when we do the work together. This part of the treatment is spiritual. She calls the flow of energy, “life energy.” If someone is religious they can think of it as being the power of their god. Otherwise it is simply the wisdom of the universe come to heal us.

So she is a master orthomolecular psychiatrist who understands nutrients and the body better than anyone I’ve met. She is a scientest who reads the PDR and extrapolates treatments based on a drugs actions on the body. And she is an energy healer.

We are both thrilled at how well I’m responding.

She does say that my attitude is in large part a help too. I really want to get better and was willing to put up with initial discomforts and an ongoing certain amount of experimentation. I’m also in this for the long haul. I’m by no means all better. I am relatively much better, but far from well.

There are many more particulars I could share and perhaps I will over time.